Blog7 Nobody can reach the acme of perfection

Yesterday when I
browse the RenRen, the motto transmitted by others also resonate me in some
extent though the motto has been told since I was a child. The motto is
something like this “The life is too short, why do we always make the
featherweight influences our important mood.” “We care about others’ views so
much that we don’t have the courage to do what we like, to chase the one we
love. We are totally immerged into others’ embroidered stories and comments and
then lose ourselves. But actually nobody has the energy to think what you’re
thinking about; we ought not to overestimate the status that we are in others’
mind. It doesn’t matter to be talked or to be misunderstood by others. The more
you live in others’ eyes, the more you lose in your way.” I have a great
reflection on this feeling.

Take myself as a
example, sometimes I think my life is always in a hurry. I am busying at getting
along with others, finishing the assignments in advance, comparing myself with
others, studying hard to live up to parents’ expectation, to avoid myself being
behind others. It seems that everything deviate my goals is useless and no profit
to get so I shouldn’t spend my time on it. I tried myself to do as much as possible
to study and to get along with others. But actually, I am really tired to be
like that. For I want to show the most perfect part of myself to others, I
tried to be talkative, tried to show myself as another person and hide what I
like in my heart so I live a very exhausting and unhappy life for a long time.
Even now I don’t know what I have learnt and what kind of person I want to be as
if all my work is for nothing and I am getting nowhere. The situation is very
real to me and I wants to escape, but has no idea how to do so or how to even
approach the situation rationally.

It is until last
week I do the color quiz, I realize this kind of emotion is severe. "Tension
and stress is brought on by trying to cope with conditions which are out of her
control, using up all her strength and leaving her feeling inadequate. she
wishes to escape into a more peaceful and problem-free environment, in which
she will no longer have to assert herself or deal with so much pressure."
Maybe now I have the awareness to make a difference. Though it is not a good
character to be quiet but I do like this feeling of not being disturbing and
live peacefully. I want to be what I really want to be though others may not
like it.

In addition, our
energy is limited, if we always want to reach the acme of perfection, we cannot
even finish a simple thing well. And as time passes, when you find whatever you
want to achieve cannot be achieved in a short period of time and cannot be
changed for your inability and indecisiveness, you will put a large amount of
stress on your shoulder and live unhappily and tired. That is my true feeling
and it makes me uncomfortable and constrained. Though I haven’t find a good
solution, at least I find the problem and try to change.

Yesterday I
watched a movie in cinema called “Street Dance 2”. The hero in the story cared
too much about his opponent’s view and escape out of the shadow of failure. He
dared not to show his real passion in dancing, which limited his development
and made him desperate. But at least he realized what is the priority in his
life and showed himself freely and unconstraintly in the final competition. He
both gained success and love.

I hope everyone
who saw this blog can express himself freely and show the real character to
others without caring others’ view too much in the daily life. Just laugh
whenever you want and just keep silence whenever you like. We live for
ourselves. We cannot reach the acme of perfection and make everyone satisfied.
Even others don’t appreciate you; at least you are enjoying yourself. Though
you may not have a large amount of friends, at least you have a few friends who
can understand you and deserve you to treasure. Though you are not the best,
you must have some glimmers which can be found by others. It’s good to strive
for excellence, it is more important to do things according your ability and
don’t lose yourself all the time. I hope everyone can live happy.