Blog7 I am afraid of calling you

I am afraid of calling you?

  Since we were apart from each other, I have called many people even who I was not familiar with at all. However, to you, the times I call you are very very . It does not means I do not miss you. It does not mean I forget you. In fact, I wish I can call you everyday, but I am afraid of it, afraid of calling you.

  I still remember the moment when we are together. I still remember the first time we met. I still remember the voice of you. I remember everything between you and me. But they all are only the memories. All these residual fragments in my mind are just like the visional fog which I cannot touch. Every time when I listen the songs which are sung by the singer you like; every time when I ecperience the similar situations which we did together, your figure will appear in my ming; your sound will reverberate around my ears. All the memory come flooding back. You cannot imagine how much I miss you, how eager I want to see you and talk with you. However, I do not have enough courage. I am afraid. The more do I miss you, the scarer I am. I always write messages to you, but finally I have delete those words. I do not why I am so timid. I am afraid to talk with you, I am afraid to tell to you. Because you treated mre too well. I do not want you to worry about me. I still remember everytime I pour out my trifles to you, you were always affettuoso so much. Watching your intense expression, I was so moved that I cannot be piyiless enough to make you feel anxious.
 
  When I review the nice reminiscence, I cannot stop worry about you. Are you used to the life now? Do you get good along with your classmates now? Is there anybody care for you? Therefore, I tell myself I must be worried a lot. Cannot you be ignored. You are always the most considerate people. You have the magic to let everybody like you. I do not want to bother you when you are busy. In fact, I feel so happy to know you have a good life from your microblogging. Do you remember the words you told to me when we left from each other? "Take care of yourself, do not make me worry about you." I am trying my best to do it.
 
  Please forgive me not to call you. I do not forget you. I still miss you. I have growen up. Although I left, I am still fine. I can take care of me. Do not warry about me. Also, take good care of yourself, do not make me worry about you. To all my best friends.